This might surprise you,
but I don’t think the world,
or God,
owes me anything.

I don’t believe,
I should be above struggle.
I would never want to be,
above struggle.

Struggle,
is one of the greatest gifts,
God has given me.
Without struggle,
I am nothing.

God made us incredible,
resilient,
intelligent beings.
He gives us,
every tool we need.
Sometimes we don’t see it,
or we decide to not use it.
It’s there.

He’s there.
He’s the one,
and only,
constant parent I’ve had.
The one who loves me so much,
that He allows me to fall.
But He is there.
The one who loves me so much,
that He allows me to feel pain.
But He is there.

He is the one who sacrificed,
His perfect son,
so that I,
could choose,
learn,
and find my way back.
All while gaining strength,
wisdom,
compassion,
love,
and all He has to give.

Why would I expect,
not to suffer?
Why would I think,
I am above it?
Why would I think,
I am above my brother…
who suffered everything?
Why would I be,
so selfish,
to think that I,
am walking this earth…
only for myself?
For my own pleasure?

I look around,
see the organization,
in all things created by God.
I look at the deepest level,
there is always a pattern,
a plan,
a system…
all things working together.
It’s not random.

What I experience in my life,
is not random.
It is for me.
It is for my good.
It is for my good,
that I may do good for Him.
He may use me,
to help others,
find their good.
He wants me to do all things,
for you,
which is Him.

Ripples don’t only happen in water.

This life…
this thing I do everyday,
has a purpose.
I do not know that full purpose,
because I am not Him,
but I know there is a purpose.

The hardest part,
has become,
trying to figure out,
the purpose in my timeframe,
instead of letting Him teach me,
when He wants me to learn.
The hardest part,
is letting go of the control,
that I never had.
The hardest part,
is being patient.
The hardest part,
is getting out of His way.

The more I resist,
the way He chooses for me,
the harder it is,
to walk forward.

When I let go,
open myself,
stop resisting,
I end up finding,
the greatest reward.
The greatest happiness.

Sometimes,
there is so much pain,
and hurt,
but happiness is always there waiting.
He always gives me,
the understanding…
eventually.

He allows me to feel,
some of His greatest blessings.
He allows me to BE,
one of His greatest blessings.

What other purpose do I need?
What else could feel more at home,
comforting,
than that?

NOTHING.

We all suffer and hurt. No one is exempt. When we focus on the suffering and hurt of ourselves, we are blinded by what He needs us to learn. When we shift our eyes to the suffering and hurt of others, we see what He needs us to do. He owes us nothing. We owe Him everything. What is He asking you to do? Are you seeing?