Dishonor

Last year on this day, I shared this picture on social media.Mom & Me

Someone sent me a personal message saying that I dishonored my mom by sharing the picture. I immediately took it down and posted this status in it’s place:

“I apologize that there are some people who may have misinterpreted the photo I posted earlier today of me and my mom. The picture is only one of a daughter finally being able to embrace her mother more fully after tubes & wires were no longer in the way. She did not pass away until several days later.
I made the choice to post the picture just to show a picture of a depth of love that I have for my mom and to encourage others to show love to others.
I will now be taking the picture off of social media as I’ve been told that I have dishonored my mom by posting it. That was not my intention and it is hard for me to think that it has been interpreted that way when I thought I was honoring my mom and my love for her.”

I know that it’s impossible for anyone to fully know what this picture represents to me.

It was such a pivotal moment for both of us. Just hours before, I had made the decision to take my mom off of all life support. I was the one person who had the power to say if she should continue to suffer or be freed from her pain. It was literally a life changing decision for both of us. My brother took this picture of me with my mom just moments after all the tubes were finally removed from her body. It was the first time I could see and touch her whole face. It was the first time I could hold her that closely unobstructed and just love her. It was the first time since I was a young innocent girl, that I was able to love her unconditionally… I had no other feelings other than love for her in my heart because of the forgiveness that God showed to me during this experience with her.

On my face you are looking at understanding, forgiveness, openness, acceptance, the pure love of Christ that he put within me.

On her face I see relief. She was and is grateful for my strength on that day. Strength that can only come from God. In this moment, she didn’t have to question God’s or my love for her.

A year ago, I felt prompted to share this picture.
Today, I share it again.

My intention,
is that those who look upon it,
can be moved in whatever way God needs you to be moved.
Maybe today…
it is someone’s answer to a prayer.
it is reassurance for a difficult choice you had to make.
it is a feeling of pure love that you need.

For me,
it is a reminder,
that I was moved by God.
Today…
it is an answer to my prayer.
it is reassurance for the difficult choice I had to make.
it is a feeling of pure love that I need.

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